The Milky Way of Destruction

     

     I have been thinking about Hamas; I have to confess that if you had asked me a few weeks ago to tell you four things I knew about Hamas I would be able to name one: their existence and status as a terrorist organization. My thoughts came together while laying down on top of my car watching the stars with the girl I'm in love with; having lost my mother early and in a horrific way, I immediately feel guilty when happiness surrounds me in anyway. How do I have the right to feel good in this world when the woman who gave birth to me was locked in a mental institution for her entire life. And for something that is treatable: depression.

     But tonight, as I looked at the stars, I was not thinking about my mother, my mind was at Gaza where no one tonight is enjoying the Milky Way because the Israeli government decided to use the beauty of the sky as an avenue; an avenue of sheer destruction. I told my partner that I have been asking myself for a few minutes now why I didn't have a stronger reaction to the kidnap of jewish civilians while being furious of the reaction by the Israeli government to the actions of Hamas.

     She answered my question so swiftly that I felt as if she had entered my mind and declared it:: " Here it is. Is that what you are looking for?" I had no reaction because you expect this of Hamas. You expect this of terrorist groups, and although you feel empathy towards the victims, you are not surprise by anything terrorists do anymore.

     And that realization brought me back to my angry, vicious reaction towards Israel bombing of Gaza; you don't expect jews to behave like that. Jews have always been associated in my mind with the Holocaust, since the first time I learned about the atrocities at concentration camps. This week, for the very first time I realized that I romanticized Israel as a country because of my sympathy towards jewish people. I actually realized that for the very first time in my entire history in this planet I gave a group of politicians my trust. I should have known better. 

     I have been repeating this all day so I will say it again here: the world should ask of jews what we ask of muslims. Denounce the action of your government; denounce the bombings of civilians and children. There are millions of Palestinians in this world and we can not despise, hate, bare antipathy towards all of them because some of them are criminals and antisemites.

     Tonight I learned that I fell out of love with the State of Israel - the same way I feel about China - and see them for what they are, a political group; a government body just like any other; filled with politicians and power hungry individuals who use their position to inflict pain on others and to force groups to bend to their will. 

     For over fifty years these people have justified keeping an entire group of people imprisoned in what can only be described as concentration camps and while they don't torture them as the nazi regime did, they do bomb and kill and silence the voices of the dissidents. Including children. 

    Tonight I realized that the Jewish people of today are not the victims of any Holocaust; the real victims have perished many, many years ago. The jewish that are here today are no different than you and I, like us, they have a history of sadness and violence that sometimes make them unable to enjoy life. Unable to forget the atrocities of a not so distant past. 

     Then, there are the other jews. The ones that hide behind an entire group of people to do what they do best, spread destruction, pain, humiliation and tremendous suffering to another group. When anyone dares to call them on their behavior, they immediately bring out the Holocaust and scream antisemitism. Somehow, they were able to convince the entire world that all jews are alike and pure of intent. Not a single word can be said of any jew without the risk of being accused of disliking an entire group.

     Tonight, the Israeli government revealed themselves to me for what they always were, a despicable group of politicians that are killing and oppressing another group in the name of all the jewish community. An image of Hasidic jews come to me: crossing the street with their families. Going about with their days. In peace.

Is it too much to ask that Palestinians are allowed to do the same? And how absurd is it that we are asking. I am an atheist and more and more; an atheist. Thank the heavens for that. Never in all my existence a voice inspired me to plan the murder of thousands. Two thousand Palestinian children died this week alone.

You are not an antisemite if you state the facts; you are anti violence. You are anti war. We are all human beings.

      

Beyond The Blue Skies

Beyond the blue skies                     

I may find all the reasons,

so many doubts, so many whys.

There was a time 

I thought I knew...

There was a time 

I thought I knew...

But it was only youth 

exuding from my pores.

Beyond the blue skies

Lie all the answers.

If only I could fly so high.

      

The Religion Experiment

     

     Enough is enough; how many human beings will the world allow Israel to kill before we call it for what it is: genocide.

     And for my Jewish readers, you are not the chosen people; I know that to be a fact because there's no such a thing as a God of any kind. All religion is a made up story to help people deal with the fear of death. ( read Ernest Becker's The Denial of Death) 

     The rest of us, non-religious people, live our lives ignoring the insanity of all religions until you step over the line. Who gave the Israeli army permission to just bombard a city filled with civilians? How is this different than the insane people who flew planes into the World Trade Center?

     You don't get to make up your own God, establish a set of rules and traditions to yourselves and then expect everyone to fall in line praising you for your misguided devotion. Same goes to all religions. We are sharing this planet, as human beings, we are prone to the same diseases, to the pain of watching our love ones leave this earth, hopefully after many years of living. 

     Yet, all of you, God people, decide on a whim that you have been offended and that killing each other is the answer. And God forbid anyone else with common sense speak against it, that is when you evoke the words you have crafted to allow you to continue to kill each other. Somehow, we have allowed you to get away with this behavior for centuries.

     Antisemitic is the most used term ascribed to anyone who disagrees with. your actions in relation to the Palestinian people, who you have put in a sort of concentration camp for many many years. Every once in awhile, you kill thousands of them and expect the world to look the other way. I think that finally we are beginning to see this for what it is: an encampment at best, that under the bright lights of your bombs reveal itself for what it is: a concentration camp. A place you have built it to keep all the Palestinians, to obey all your rules or be sentence to death.

     The Jewish people were victims of an inexcusable crime by the Germans and Japanese governments; spend a week in any city in Germany and you will see how serious the German government is in preventing that level of madness to ever be repeated. 

     In the meantime, the Japanese government chose collective amnesia as a way to avoid the shame they deserve to feel for their participation in the heinous, systematic killing of so many jews.

     And now, the descendants of the millions innocent exterminated became the perpetrators of violence against Palestinians. Are Jews claiming Palestinians to be all the same, violent people that need to be exterminated? 

     This sort of conflict is nothing new; on January 30th, 1972 British soldiers shot 26 unarmed civilians during a protest march in the Bogside area of Derry, Northern Ireland.That is still a stain of shame in the history of that country. 

     The Israeli army killed over 2,000 people in few weeks and almost 200 children. You can call yourselves "the chosen ones" if that makes you feel better and helps you to navigate the perils of life; but we have our beliefs. 

     My beliefs are very simple: 

there is no God. I'm alone in this world. Life is hard and way too short, and sprinkled with ephemeral happiness now and then. 

Don't drink. Don't smoke. 

Don't do any drugs.( Yes. Sugar is a drug. A venom. Toxic to the body.) 

Chose one person to share life with and don't cheat on that person. 

Wake up. Exercise. Meditate. Practice Omad. 

Pray if it brings you solace. ( I do. Sometimes. It brings me closer to my mother and my grandmother and it calms my soul.)

     Follow those guidelines to maintain your body health while you find artistic endeavors to strengthen your soul. And life will gift you with the pain you need to grow.

     What you don't do with all that pain is call yourselves "chosen ones" and oppress another community for years and years. Native Americans believed all land was sacred; the American military exterminated them all and took the land. 

     Jews are doing the same, you have taken the land you call sacred and preventing another community from enjoying it. You call yourselves "chosen" and now you have engaged in Nazism. All in the name of a fictitious God. 

     The bellic arsenal you use against your vocal critics is to evoque antisemitism. So let me be even more clear, all religions are fiction and since I'm a storyteller, beautiful to read. But when you begin killing people in the name of your particular fairytale; that's when the world needs to get together and stop you.

     My guess is that the entire world is waiting until you, "the chosen people" kill millions of Palestinians; the exact number the Nazi regime killed. Then we will put an end to this nonsense.

     My partner and I drive often through a community in Los Angeles where many Hasidic Jews live; we watch families cross the street in front of us while are at a stop sign, and it is beautiful and a bit poignant; as if we were missing something. The children, boys and girls, nicely dressed, the mother and father walking in front. It always makes me think of how nice it must be to believe in something; a being that is out there looking out for us. 

     The families always looked so content; calm; one can see that their religion, their faith has given them peace. A tranquility I certainly don't have. I don't comprehend that kind of faith but it is beautiful to see. It is disrespectful to those families when the Israeli government goes around killing Palestinians in the name of their religion. And so is for all the other religions that engage in violence against another.

     

     

      

     This is just an excerpt of a CNN report on the genocide committed this week by a group of people who should know better. 

     These are two sites destroyed  in the name of God.

 ( what is left of a hospital in Gaza. A functional hospital with civilians inside )

 ( what is left of the World Trade Center. A functional building with civilians inside )

This is actor Mark Ruffalo, back in 2019, apologizing for calling what the Israeli government is doing for what it is: genocide. I don't dislike religion- just don't believe in it, but I respect people rights to exercise it; but politicians I despise. And hypocrisy. 

Unless he is also going to apologize for calling President George Bush a war criminal. There's no difference between what US did in Iraq and Israel is doing in Gaza. Calling genocide for what it is, it's not hyperbole, it is a necessity to prevent the murder of civilians and children. 

If the price you pay for protesting the killing of children is that you never make another movie; then you never make another movie.  But you don't get to be vocal only with the crowd that agrees with you. 

You should advocate for peace, freedom of religion expression and for the sanctity of human life. Your voice should raise in protest to any group that decides to kill another in the name of their particular fairytale.

One Spoon a Day Will Not Keep the Doctor Away

A comment inspired by a video from the Institute "of whatever" on how "health freaks" are demonizing sugar.

Here are two documentaries on this sweet poison.

The Secrets of Sugar - The Fifth Estate

Reminiscing

     

     Near the Kirk Douglas theater, in Culver City, a stone's thrown away from the Sony lot, there's a elementary school. 🏫 At precisely 10:24 am, Pacific time, three teachers were trying to line up twenty students or so, to take their photograph. I could have said picture, but photograph is more eternal than a simple picture. 

     "Picture this!" someone says and then describes what *he/she/they/them* want you to see. And it is never life changing . But no one says "photograph this" because that is serious business; a photograph will stand the test of time and mark that moment forevermore.

     Many years from now, those children will look at that photograph and will be unlikely to recall the names of their classmates. My elementary school photograph is framed; it hangs on my hallway; my partner smiles every time she walks by and sometimes mocks me by saying "good morning, Karla Maria" or "good evening, Karla Maria" to the girl I love when I was 8 years old. She says the name loudly so that I can hear it over my acoustic guitar. 

     My thespian partner is Canadian; I'm convinced Canadians are all extraterrestrials; only golden retrievers are nicer and after years and years I come to find out my yellow fur coated golden retriever are sometimes called Canadian golden retrievers. It makes sense.

     It's remarkable to me how many dots in my lifeline connected in these crossing roads in Culver City. The Sony lot is where they once made films, today they focus on making movies. They had a different name then; Columbia Pictures. He who has the gold makes the rules, I venture, so gone is the beautiful lady holding a torch and I will let you tell me what is the image that Sony Pictures chose to inspire those elementary school children, because I certainly can't recall. 

     A film is a sequence of pictures, frames, lined up together and it was Kirk Douglas who gave birth to the film that would change my life. For many years, he tried to get it made but couldn't arrange financing; when he became too old to play the main character, he gave the screenplay to his son, Michael Douglas. One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest won a bucket load of oscars, including best picture - they call everything pictures here in La La Land, it is a word power play by the head of studios to keep those pesty artists grounded. By grounded, I mean well paid; it's easier to control people who work for cash.

     I walked into a theater in Brazil and all the dots connected in my mind: fashion, music, photograph, lighting, cobblestone and street lights; a kaleidoscope of things I loved strung together to tell the story of my mother.

    At lunch, Ray smiled at me and asked me what I was thinking. It is what Canadians do when Brazilians stop talking. 

"I'm reminiscing" I said. 

"And when is it that you are not reminiscing?" She asked. 

"When I'm thinking of you." I should have said, but I fumbled the moment and took something from her plate instead.

                                                    

** seriously; if the worst that happens to you today is that someone uses the wrong pronoun for you, count your blessings. 

Une Recette Pour Une Belle Vie

   

     Sometimes, the memories of my grandmother overwhelms me and I have to go searching for pieces of my history online; the history that formed me as a human being was written in Afonso Arinos, a small village located on the borderline of the states of Rio de Janeiro and Minas Gerais. Minas Gerais, undoubtedly, one of the most beautiful places in the world. 

     Just type the name of a few of its cities in your image search box and you can begin to plan your next vacation: Diamantina, Tiradentes,  Congonhas, Sao Joäo del Rey, Mariana, and the second most beautiful city in the world for me: Ouro Preto. New York City being forever my favorite city, followed by Paris, which lost the second place in my heart when I visited Ouro Preto em 2015.

     Tonight, for whatever reason, I typed Rio das Flores into my search box and discovered the beautiful Fazenda do Paraizo, owned by the beautiful couple, Paulo Roberto Botelho and his wife, Simone Botelho. There's so much I could say about the property but my words will fall short to describe the beauty of this place. You can see it for yourself.

     The second Fazenda was a nice surprise since I know the family who owns it; we all grew up in Afonso Arinos; merely 10 minutes away from where  Fazenda Santa Justa is located. An added layer of nostalgia is the fact that Vanessa Cardäo, the young woman describing the place is related to the girl I loved when I was 9 years old. 

     Then it came to me why I had a hard time talking about the beauty of both places; certain experiences have to be lived, not described. And in living it, day to day, a human being can begin to form a receipt pour une belle vie. 

     Here's how the exquisite Vanessa Cardäo describes Fazenda Santa Justa::

 "Essa fazenda pra mim tem gosto de memória, de lembrança, de felicidade, de valores, de família e de Deus também." Clarissa Cardäo. 

 "For me this farm "tastes" like memory, remembrance, happiness, values, family, and God too." Clarissa Cardäo. 

     Words to live by. What else is there to say? 

                                                    

Mother